Imagine

I am growing number and number by day. And I mean numb. It's like reaching my happy place, which is in oblivion somewhere, where nothing ever goes on, and nothing ever will. Following my sine wave theory of life, this is the "depression" part of the current curve in my life. Studies or no studies, internship or no internship, money or no money, job or no job, life or no life; it doesn't matter to me. It so happens that after trying so hard for such a long time and being reasonably successful - the "elation" part, the curve just goes down.

And I'm not joking about the part about numbness. My left's foot main toe, captain of the ship, has already become numb. I could kick a wall and start to bleed but won't feel a thing! So I guess, little by little, bit by bit, I am gonna become totally numb, and become oblivious to everything around me.

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no country
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in ease

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the onlyone
I hope some day you will join us
And the world will be one

Imagine no posession
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope some day you will join us
And the world will live as one

The Beatles - Imagine